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yesterday was awesome fun! but as a result i'm too tired now and i shall justgo sleep!

shall blog about the week when oli sends the photos so its more efficient (: haha!

and tmr must wake up early but tomorrow is an exciting day too!

but life is really getting too exhausting sometimes i just dont feel like leaving the house or talking to anyone haha. because i feel like i havent really been spending time with myself or by myself, whichever. andddd. crap 469 again.

and i guess everyone just needs to know they're loved/ needed/ important to someone else sometimes ):

haha realised i haven't blogged in ages, but i just didnt feel like it. guess the reality of a lot of things just hit me while i was trying to escape from them.

monday, can't rmb what i did anymore. prob just stayed home and rested haha.

tuesday, met karen in the library to mug. then met augie there haha and talked before pris joined us to leave for training. training was training as usual (: and that's in a great awesome way haha and i guess constant reminders of: THIS IS OUR SECOND LAST TRAINING really made us treasure it more.

went for bubble tea with angel after that, which was ___. i can't really find the words to describe it, maybe poignant? hmm and for a moment, we kind of forgot that we had gp the next day and it wasnt exactly early anymore, but we just sat at the playground and talked and talked and talked. which made me think about a lot of things, happy and sad, important and trivial. angellll (: (i would put the love sign, except it would probably screw up my html haha



wed! was gp. haha screw it haha. after that went for ice cream with pok. we went to udders for brandied pear sorbet and lychee martini, and to the original mix in after that for white chocolate gelato with oreos and marshmallows (: yummy awesome stuff (: and managed to catch up too yay (:

thursday was training once again. our last training ): had team dinner after that at s11, must be about my third/fourth time there haha! i think i'll really miss everyone after this. it's an indescribable feeling of emptiness without trainings and seeing everyone so often, because especially this year, every single one of them have come to mean so much to me.



friday was the last day of school! haha didnt really feel like it though. school was BORINGGGG. haha but had a fun ride home with hab and then left home again shortly after to meet pok and jiaks for the arts fest thing. which was HOT, STUFFY but the fireworks at the end made it worth it (:

some taxi floating on the river
(: haha i just like this photo!
wish upon a shooting star (:

outside the pretty fullerton with (two of) my favourite class ppl !


saturday was m1. i think we played awesomely well! and i really love the team hell a lot. we played our best i think although there were some slip ups here and there, but at any rate, this m1 was a much better official closure than the last one. yay bong the awesome try scorer (that ho chwin is so proud of HAHAHA)
yayyyyy

shine brighterrr (:



plate runner ups with our silly water bottle trophies thanks to the kiam siap sponsors haha!

then princess and i had to rush back to school for history lecture (how anti-climatic) but we missed like 3/4 of it already since she ended it early haha. then went home before going out again with my family! haha omg i love going out with my family. haha not spending time with them at home cos it's too boring, but when we go out it's always so fun haha! like we went grocery shopping and furniture shopping which are normally boring but then again there's two cute boys to camwhore with and baby who is ever so entertaining so yay!
haha he's so awesome! although i look so disgusting and burnt ): because of touch! omg damn painful la i'm sunburnt on the face and shoulders booo!

haha saturday night was a whirlwind of emotions, but okay im glad for you guys that everything's settled now (: yay sacrificing that bit of my sleep was worth it then (:

sunday was blacks fun touch! yippee yipppee yayy! couldnt have asked for a better way to end touch! played with 3/4 of the original team c since fifi was on her way to bintan! but we were joined by oli and karen instead. but karen had to leave halfway. and in the end we were bowl CHAMPS (: yayy haha and we refused to sms karen/ reply her smses to scare her into thinking we didnt win anything, but we surprised her at rproject by brandishing the trophy and she just screamed HAHA (:

full team photo before karen left!
no. 1 (:
yay haha our first trophy of the year! stupid water bottles dont count >: (
HAHA us, derelyn, and cleo (:

haha went for lunch with val at tomato express and we managed to catch up after not having had our tuesday date in ages! I LOVE YOU VAL. a lot a lot, even though we're spending like maybe 1/10 of the time together now compared to last december! ):

then went home, bathed, and met oli to go for rproject (: which was not bad but i think we were just really excited about giving karen the trophy (: karen and bong both looked really gorgeous (: yayy!

TROPHYYY!
truggers (:
hot siglap friend! (:

hmm what angel and i talked about after training at the playground on tuesday is really beginning to hit me hard.

angel says:
we're all damn pretty i really cannot take it
yijun says:
HAHAHA yeah our photos really all damn nice
angel says:
why are we all single???? minus bong
angel says:
hahahahah
yijun says:
HAHAHAA

haha ohgosh angel!! haha

just so you'd have something to read- HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL! I LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS (:

and i'm sure you know it already (:

monday! can't rmb what i did >< haha oops

tuesday! met karen to mug i think? omg my memory's really failing me? then went for training, haha havent touched the ball in ages >< and then went to bugis with yaya karen and bong and ate damn yummy hokkaido dessert haha!

wednesday hung around after sch with bong yaya karen again before going back to class and being shocked by something. then went with pok and jiaks to swensens for comfort food and catharsis hahaha!

thursday! met shun to study, then karen, and then had training!

friday! (today!) went for netball finals, which was exhilarating! haha i think match support just offers so much school spirit, it's incredible! i think karen, angel's and my hearts stopped so many times when the match got so exciting, and we really like screamed our hearts out when we saw us catching up after lagging behind by 9 points at the worst stage! but i'm really glad we went and watched (:

haha and then went back to j8 with karen and bought my 2 dollar water bottle again HAHAHAA and met shun and augie for dinner before going for college play, and it was damn funny talking crap and everything haha (: awesomee hahaha (:

sigh i dont even know what the hell i'm blogging about nowadays anymore, life just seems to fly by in a blur, and i think the stress is beginning to pile up.

sometimes i still feel all my emotions in a whirl within me, and i hate it when i let them get the better of me. because i know i shouldn't, not at all. but i can't help it sometimes. like staring at the five letters of my name in your handwriting, and not daring to open it anymore.

but sometimes you can't expect me not to feel anything when you do such assholic things in front of me right?

haha i wanted to type something that sounded really nice (albeit sad), but then on second thoughts, i think it might give a wrong impression so maybe i wont haha.

photo with geri at rugby finals!

yay happy us with the hairdresser haha! and our nicely blown hair that we felt like delinquents walking around far east with haha! andddddd the terrible thing was that there was this nice shoe shop next to our hairdressers, so after angel left for tuition, karen and i walked in and went: woahh the shoes so nice! and then i walked out of the shop with two pairs of new shoes, and she had one pair! hahaa sigh :/

thursday had no training, so mugged in the library with karen and angel (:

friday! had combined civics and then went home to sleep because i was too tired already.

today! so annoying the whole thing about the game/ no game thing, wasted 1.5 hours of my time travelling!!! ): then went for jacques briel after that, which was rather fantastic considering we didnt really know what to expect, and emma yong was awesome and the george guy's biceps were humongous haha! then went for dinner at sketches which was quite nice (:

and now i can watch my newly downloaded episodes of gossip girl :D

and looking back at the way i've been blogging these past few months, i find that i think i really only live for the moment. like everyday is just meet blahblahblah, hadlots of fun talking and crapping around etc. not that i'm complaining, because it is really quite fun, but it's just that sometimes i wonder about certain stuff, especially when there're trigger incidents. like how i think sometimes filling my life up to the brim everyday is actually shutting a lot of people out, because for me to actually meet people it often boils down to appointments and arranging things and stuff, which kind of shuts a lot of people out of my life. and i miss doing spontaneous stuff also, which is why whenever i do, like have lunch/ spend breaks with people randomly, i think it's pretty awesome (: but yet sometimes i wonder if it's retaliation. like how i feel that your life doesn't need me anymore, so i try my best to show you that i'm doing perfectly great without you in my life too. and yet it backfires on me instead. or maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe you don't even care.

but sometimes i really don't know what i'm doing also, and if i'm actually living a life that i really want to lead. because i know i'm really lucky to be at where i'm at now compared to many others, but sometimes i just can't help thinking if somehow, it is kind of screwed up, thanks in part to you.

hello everyone, this is an ad for my incredibly adorable brother!

BABY NOW HAS A FACEBOOK ACCOUNT (: if you want to add him! you can find him at babyjinrong@gmail.com! (: so go add him today :D

haha i just created it so that ppl can tag photos of him properly and then he can look at them next time when he grows up haha!

maybe i shall create some homies/ fan club thing for my incredibly famous brother :D HAHA

haha okay!

anyway the week's been fine, went to watch rugby yday with angel and oli and karen joined us later. kinda sad that they lost cos it was so close! ): went to island creamery to eat ice cream after that, and then in the end after everyone left, karen and i languished around feeling sad about our lives and prospects till like almost nine haha! but it was quite funny at some points haha (: truggers always cheer me up (:

today! i got a wonderful surprise by my daddy! who bought me the iphone :D hahaa YAYY and like the clothes i wanted from the US :D :D :D haha training was fun as usual, and then tmr there's something to look forward to haha (:

okay i shan't waste my time blogging anymore, i have a newfound goal and purpose in life now, and i'm going to at least TRY working towards it, as unattainable as it seems! so i can at least say i TRIED. okay byebye (:

haha havent blogged at all this week, but it's been pretty awesome, studying for h3 and work aside haha!

monday studied with angel after school, but of course er we ended up talking most of the time hahaaaa lamenting our sad boyfriendless state and lack of future prospects or something haha


tuesday! went for free cone day with yaya and cut into angel's queue hahaa! before training, which was awesome shitz fun! haha we played baseball rugby, had wheelbarrow, piggybacking and worm crawling races etc! and played some water bloating up game hahah! all part of derelyn's plan to cheer us up after m1 i think! (: which worked tremendously, but i think the part where we laughed the hardest must have been because of THE TOFFA INCIDENT which is unforgettable, and goes down onto the list of stories that i can hear/tell and million times and never stop laughing each time haha!

went for free cone day again after that but we were too late so bong angel oli and i ended at macs after pris left, and soon angel and oli left and then talked to bong for a while before she had to leave and then studied while waiting for mummy to pick me up! haha truggers are awesomeeeee (:

wed! hmm hung around waiting for harmoc, and went to the library with pok and talking was nice yay (: before going to j8 to meet angel and oli for dinner. haha harmoc concert was er interesting haha our first time watching harmocs haha! hung around with angel oli auyong fiona etc after the concert cos that was about all the ppl we knew there! haha


thurs was spent waking up late, watching the OC and studying haha!


friday met angel after sch and i went to gloria jeans at cityhall while she went vivo haha! then after studying a while until evening then i made my way to NUS to see baby backstage (:


haha and it was quite cool talking to all the dancers backstage but most importantly! i was so excited seeing baby go on stage i felt like some proud mother! hahaaaaa and i felt so proud of him after he finished doing his part (: (: (:


haha sat had h3 test, walked around ps with jolyn before going home after i bought balloons flowers etc haha!


then met class at nydc, where we were ONCE AGAIN late and had to run like hell (now my feet still hurt okayyyy)


but dance night was awesome, and baby was even better this night than before (: after being backstage on friday i was really looking forward to watching on saturday! haha i think now he's more popular than me in school already lor haha! but yay i am so proud of him :D :D and GOOD JOB KELLY CARMEN DENISE RACHEL NICOLE DARYL BING ETC (: hahaa i think baby is quite attached to all the "jiejies" alr haha he just asked me how come today no need to perform and that he wants racheljiejie HAHA tsktsk such a pimp he!

KELLY (: LOVE YOU BABE (:
DENISE CARMEN BABY AND ME HAHA!
CLASS haha baby looks glum haha! and you cant see the transformers balloon i bought for him ): haha! i wonder if he'll even remember dance night in years to come! haha BUT I WILL REMEMBER FOR HIM HAHA (:

and i wish i didnt have to see you everyday.

haha sometimes i think, who am i trying to kid? i say thank you for the past and that's enough?


that's utter crap.